Good Day

Hello, all.
I created this blog in an attempt to keep in touch with old friends, and perhaps make a few new ones. I don't call people much and neither do my friends, nor do I use myspace or facebook to the extent of some. Perhaps the best thing about high school was having your friends in the same building five days a week, whether you wanted to spend time with them or not. ;-)

My first semester as a full-time college student starts in less than a week, and I am, in short, unprepared. No, emotionally I am ready. My mom and dad will be half a mile and five miles away from campus, respectively, and my younger siblings are attending high schools just down the hill from my campus.

I've mentally prepared myself for homework; I've done some research on my new professors and their expectations. I know that my history teacher doesn't teach from the book but rather tests students based on his own notes he gives in class, and I know that my Japanese professor is going to quiz me every Friday on new phrases and kanji. No, I'm ready for that, too.

I've also packed up most of my precious belongings (mostly books), for the first time in years really honestly separating things I like and things I can't live without (i.e. what will be put in storage and what will fit in my dorm room). All that's left to pack are a few odd items and clothing.

My future roommate and I are best friends, we know all (or most) of each others' strengths, weaknesses, quirks, annoying habits, study habits and tastes in people. We've got a mini-fridge, a microwave, a TV, various video game consoles, a coffee machine, rugs and new sheets.

So why do I still feel so very unprepared?

Come to think on it, this feeling of oh-my-God-it's-almost-time-what-am-I-forgetting is very similar to the one I feel when I'm packing for vacations. But this isn't a trip to Seattle, it's the start of a new, very important chapter in my life. One that costs quite a bit of money and will have a huge impact on my future.

Maybe that's why I'm scared. But I'm also excited. I'm starting over, fresh, new, with almost unlimited opportunities for growth. It's scary but wonderful. I've been needing a new start, a chance to shake off my old insecurities, to meet new people who won't recognize me as someone or something that I no longer am. A chance to prove myself.

I feel better now. :-) And I promise the next entry will be more upbeat.

Peace.




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